Wednesday, April 20, 2011

Raised to a New Life

Death seems to be rampant this week. It is Holy Week, a time Christians remember and mourn Jesus’ death on the cross. It is also Passover, a time Jews recall their rescue from slavery in Eqypt- a freedom won only after Pharaoh watched every Egyptian firstborn die. More recently agonizing, a friend of mine lost her baby this week. 8 months pregnant, then a lost life. As if she needed more emotional and physical pain, she had to endure the full induced labor experience to deliver the baby, knowing that at its completion she and her husband would only be mourning a lost little girl. Even the weather seems to join in mourning with days of cold, steady drizzle.

In some ways there doesn’t seem to be much to say in this post. I have no solution for present grief; it is not a fictional story line that I can somehow resolve with the right character climax/catharsis. And yet somehow both Christians and Jews are able to look back on a time of death and celebrate rather than mourn. But how?

Part of the story is knowing the ending; to understand that death on Good Friday is followed by new life on Easter Sunday. To remember that death for the Egyptians meant deliverance and freedom for the Jews to a new Promised Land. But even the knowledge of renewed life later cannot (and should not) erase our grief for lost time on Earth. Rather it mutes the extent of our grief, allowing us to shed tears and memories over the graves of loved ones, without becoming lost to raging, inconsolable hopelessness.

For there is hope. Hope that in the short term that we will leave the world a better place behind us through our service and love for others. Hope that our grief will make us more thoughtful towards life, more understanding towards our fellow man. And underneath everything, a foundational belief in the long term that one day death itself will pass away, that evil will lose its grip on the Earth, and that the world will awake to the full glory it was originally intended to have. (See Revelations 21:1-5)

With knowledge of final victory, we mourn for now. But we mourn with perspective, which makes all the difference.

Dostoyevsky, The Brothers Karamazov:
"I believe like a child that suffering will be healed and made up for, that all the humiliating absurdity of human contradictions will vanish like a pitiful mirage, like the despicable fabrication of the impotent and infinitely small Euclidean mind of man, that in the world's finale, at the moment of eternal harmony, something so precious will come to pass that it will suffice for all hearts, for the comforting of all resentments, for the atonement of all the crimes of humanity, for all the blood that they've shed; that it will make it not only possible to forgive but to justify all that has happened."

Wednesday, April 13, 2011

The Roman Gardener

Our church small group is progressing through a study of Romans, and verse 6:21, “What benefit did you reap at that time from the things you are now ashamed of?,” got me thinking. Paul refers to Christians’ lives before and after believing the gospel, and their new perspective that rendered so many prior goals meaningless. This verse reminded me in a different direction – what do we spent time on now that we will regret looking back on our lives?
I’m not saying we should all go out, quit our jobs, and live our lives sipping margaritas in Tahiti (though given the persistent cold rain in NYC this month, that isn’t sounding so bad). Working diligently and honestly brings a sense of purpose in our lives. But when does the desire for personal gain take over the desire to work honorably? When does pride drive us to worry incessantly about being promoted or finding that key stepping-stone job that will land us the true dream down the road? If life were frozen as it is now, à la Groundhog Day, would you be happy with it? What would you change or keep the same? 
Schools and business struggle to teach ethics effectively for a reason: we humans are terribly short-sighted. We seek short-term gain. Possible long-term consequences seem fuzzy at best – certainly not worth giving up the gain now, our short-term minds whisper. Our politicians do the same, avoiding long-term questions like the national debt (blogged more in-depth here) until a true fiscal crisis threatens to crush us.
So what is the solution? How do we develop the self-awareness to recognize areas where we invest time and emotions in goals that we would look back on 20 years from now and see as empty? The answer to the question posed in Romans springs from another book; 1 Thessalonians 5:21 commands: Test everything. Hold on to the good.
It is our job then to be gardeners of our own souls; trimming back unwanted growth and nurturing the blooms that we want to flourish.